Friday, November 17, 2006
sighs. sometimes i wished i knew wat was going thru his mind.
i mean sometimes it seems he really loves me.
when we go to the beach, i feel tat he really does love me.
den after tat... the love switch suddenly switches off.
it's like.. we only meet once a week.
and let me tell u.. my face has been thrown and stepped on la.
girls dun usually ask guys out. maybe once in a while yes. but not so often.
for me.. i've been the one asking him out. out of all the times i haf asked him out..
only 3 times he has accepted. the rest of the times i get rejected.
i mean how many times can a girl do this?
i dun mean to say tat guys MUST be the one to ask girls out.
but.. for a girl to KEEP asking a guy out and keep gettin rejected.
it's really humiliating not mentioning abt the big disappointment within.
and has he asked me out at all??
ONLY ONCE! ONLY. ONCE.
wat can i do?
i can't do anything.
i dun want to be those kind of needy girls. or the irritating kind.
but if I dun ask him out.
we will NEVA go out since he NEVA asks.
sighs. i dunno wat to do.
okok. i noe. i shld not be pampered and whiny.
i shall be understanding. yes yes. tat's wat i will be.
for all i noe he may haf his reasons.
yes. tat must be it. anywae, everything is fine as long as he loves me rite?
- i tink i'm lying to myself. but it makes me feel better. -
`if u love me, u would be here wif me.
Y 4:27 PM
