Tuesday, November 21, 2006
thoughts just keep running thru my mind.
seriously, i've really tried not to tink abt it. tried to give excuses.
but.. as time passes, i get more and more afraid. more and more paranoid.
and because of this, i get a second fear.
fear that as a result of this somewhat "clingy-ness", it drives u away.
okaes. this is really making me fustrated.
all these thoughts.
it's like.. one side will try not to tink abt it. and therefore i will tink more.
another side comes up wif excuses and explanations.
another makes negative conclusions.
and finally the other one juz says that i am over-reacting. and tat i myself is making everything worse.
so which side do i actually follow?
let's toss a coin.
too bad a coin only has 2 sides.
i miss u so damn much.do you?i guess i better start accepting the truth.
tat we will neva be together.
after wat u msged me today..
my irritating paranoid mind went into overload.
"juz give me some time"
tat's the phrase which scares me the most.
will u promise be with me after tat some time?
will you?
sighs.
i hate the brain.
it thinks too much for its own good.
so irritating.
IRRITANT!
ARGH! i swear i am going nuts.
BONKERS!
CRAZZZ-AAAYYY!
Y 1:41 AM
