ARGH! sometimes i really feel like screaming at you.ARGHHHHH!!seriously..how selfishannoyingirritatingfustratingRAAHHH-ing can u get?i am sooo not in the mood to be the one trying to understand and stuff.OMGOODNESS!I GIVE UP!yeah. fine.i'm immature, selfish, un-understanding, demanding, not worth it, etc, etc.I DUN CARE ANYMORE.argh!if you had just stop for one sec and actually considered my feelings..MAYBE i would care.BUT EVIDENTLY YOU DIDNT!ARRRGGHH!!! somehow it's just you you you AND wow! YOU!EVERYTHING is considered a priority EXCEPT ME!i'll be shocked to even make it to the top 10.YES! NOW I AM BEING SELFISH CUZ NOW I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE ABT ME!haf u ever thought abt how i felt?like when we go out and i'm not sure if i am EVEN allowed to touch for fear of seeing ur church ppl?when i do hold or touch u, i get this fear tat ur church ppl will find out and u will get into trouble?or like how u are like.. "i dun want to let u go but i haf to" right after a fun time together and u make me hurt and confused?or the fact tat other ppl INCLUDING other christians tell me tat it's ok for them to be with "outsiders" and u tell me another thing but yet no matter wat, i still believe u?or maybe even how u only make time for me when NOONE else has booked u during tat time?do u ever stop and think? or even care?even asking u to help me in my studies is hard.all i needed from u was to be there, help me abit, figuring out with me though u were not good at it.but no.. u didnt. DIDNT EVEN BOTHER!seriously. i would haf preferred it if u had said tat u had stuff on.it would haf had less disappointment.but whatever la. u just go on with your life. being the busy god-loving person u are.Why do you play with my heart?
Why do you play with my mind?
Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say goodbye
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