hmm. wanted to change my blog song.
but i couldnt find anything suitable just yet.
sighs.
nevermind. shall stick with it:)

ANYWAE. let me continue with saturday night at Wei Sheng's house.
so me, Jo-An, Miah, Gekku, Gabe went over to keep Ws company.
we ate and drank and drank and snack-ed.
they found out tat when i am bored,
i do pretty stupid things. haha.

ONE example:
Ws had sunburn so like.. some parts were peeled off and some werent ready to be peeled. and i tink he drank abit too much.
so he was red all over.
his peeled off parts were pink and havent peeled parts were RED.
haha. andandand.. i realised if i put my fingers on his skin,
they leave a white mark!
SO FUN LA!
i wrote my name, created the adidas sign etc. haha.
yeahs.
they called me childish.
but hey, i entertained them wat. hmmph. go figure.
HAHA.

ANYWAE. dvd marathon-ed. slept ard 6 plus? woke up at 2 pm.
left his house ard 5 pm. we emo-ed thru the night la. haha. it was a good session.

okaes. back to the present.
i haf no idea why i am so very UBER emo these few days.
like suddenly haf no mood for anything.
i dun feel like i am laughing tat much anymore.
not much interest in stuff.
sighs.
maybe i do haf an idea why i am like tat.
but hey. get over it right?

ANYWAE. i realised being in the toilet helps me calm down alot.
as well as help me to tink better.
try it! I'M SERIOUS la.

i was thinking abt religions [in the toilet] last night.
and there are things abt religion tat make me confused and stuff.
there are things tat i dun understand and i tink i would never will.
i guess i dun like how some religions put down other religions.
i mean i'm not saying tat everyone in a certain religion does tat.
i'm just saying generally, so please, dun get offended.
i mean, if ppl want to believe in a certain religion, say catholicism,
den why not let them be?
why try to convert them?
it's all abt faith wat.
it's a diff in preference.
i feel tat ppl shldnt put down other religions, cuz it's just wrong.
it's like condemning someone for not following ur preference.
and tat's unfair.
some religions haf rules tat i dun totally agree with.
but i cant do anything abt it cuz..
well.. rules are rules rite?
it's ur choice on whether u wanna follow it or not.
all though it does irks me alot. but..
it's still ultimately ur choice.

but den again, this is MY opinion.
i might be wrong or right in different ppl's eyes.
but let me repeat.. this is MY opinion.
i'm in NO way condemning OR putting down any other religions.
IF in ANY way, i haf offended ANYONE.
i am TRUELY sorry.

sighs. alot of stuff has been clouding me lately.
and.. i myself do not noe wat EXACTLY are these stuff.
just some things buggering me.
argh.
irritating crap.

i wish Pisangs could be Pisangs again.

:(

it makes me real sad to see us in this state.
everyone has drifted apart.
sighs.

this is an e-mail to every Pisang from Kannan.
Kannan says ;

When i grow old and look back at my life,
i would identify a certain x'mas that i had spent with friends that really matter to me.
How time has passed, a new academic year is here.
And everyday,
i walk through the concourse (that i will always remember)
looking for 9 familiar faces.
Faces that would make my day no matter how bad it was.
Faces that would make a special place deep down in my heart feel happy. But recently i haven't seen them much.
And today when i saw all of them i glowed.
Cause i really missed them.
And i know next year when i graduate, i would cry.
Cause i might never see them again.

Cause i would not be able to tickle Jon
or Joke abt Sam's height
or keep telling Jiamin how she would soon really look like me
or sing emo songs with Jolene and staying up all night with her
or support my fav football club with Long
or have late night suppers with Lou
or get high and crazy with Jo-an
or tease the Pisang girls together with TK
or see Joyce in a skirt.

Even now i feel that we aren't as close as we were.
With fights, deceit and misunderstandings.
I might just start crying soon.
Cause maybe Pisangs won't last till then.
I just hope that in the end
when i leave i would be able to say to each of you:
" i love you and you made a difference in my life,
and no matter where i go or what i do
i will always remember a breakfast of bake beans, toast, sausauge and eggs with a banana that started it all."

Love Chao Ta
Once a Pisang Forever a Pisang


i NEARLY teared.
KEY-WORD : NEARLY.


**ps. did i tell tat i tink Livejournal is weird?
LET ME TELL U!
i tried adding a comment for my friend..
andandand.. they asked me to CONFIRM tat i am a HUMAN.
like.. hello! would a monkey be typing a comment?
*i got a pic of it! i swear! HAHA!*
NEVERMIND. below they asked me to type wat i see in the box
so tat they can confirm tat i am NOT a SPAM ROBOT.
and.. if i cant read, click HERE for audio hearing.
HAHAHA!
i had to laugh.
first. tat whole spam robot thing was stupid retarded stupid&retarded.
second. if i couldnt read.. i cant click HERE can i?
third. if i couldnt read.. i wont be here right now.

HAHA!

dumbass.

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