u keep coming in & out of my life,& i keep walking in & out of ur life.is this the chapter where we both walk out of each other's lives for good?i really dunno wat i feel. seriously.i dun tink i believe u. how could i after all tat bluffs?i cheat u, u cheat me back.how would life be if we patched?would it be a game of bluff?let's talk abt my feelings.i'm scared tat if i let u go again, i would deeply regret it.and i'll spend nights & nights & nights thinking why i was so stupid.but on the other hand.. do i still haf feelings for u?or do i not want to let u go cuz i've grown dependent on u?and the thing is,the person whom i truely fell for before is not there anymore.u've changed. i dunno if it's for the good or for the worse. but wat i noe is tat, the "U" tat u are now, is not the "U" tat i once was in love with.probably tat change in u was my fault.but.. yeahs.aye. whatever la. i shall tink abt it as Patrina says.ANYWAE. i am starting to hate elections.wait. let me re-phrase tat.I HATE ABSOLUTELY ABHOR ELECTIONS.friendships are strained.feelings are hurt.bitching, back-stabbing, bad-mouthing..they are all coming out.these current elections are seriously bringing out the WORST in ppl.and..i find it really sad.ppl whom i thought were nice, suddenly are not.ppl whom i thought were my good friends, suddenly are not.this whole thing is making me feel really sian and sad.i do haf the interest in running for main comm,contrary to what ppl may tink.the only reason why i seem to hold back is cause when i look back on how the old main comm did their job,i wonder,will i be even able to do half the good job done by them?will i bring the main comm down?will i crack under the stress?and though i dun haf the confidence yet,i'm slowly building up on it.aye. but seriously ar.i would rather get in to the main comm on the reason that,ppl ACTUALLY thought that i was capable enough.not cause of friend networking.but den.. so far this election has been all abt popularity.sighs.oh wells.
give me something to believe in
cause i dun believe in u anymore.
i wonder if it even makes a difference,
it even makes a difference to try
and u talk abt how u're feeling
but i dun believe it’s true anymore.
i wonder if it even makes a difference to cry.
so this is goodbye
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