wat would u say if i asked u not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over wif me
would u take my hand and neva let me go
promise me u'll never let me go
and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right
i feel like i've lost everything when u're gone
left remembering what it's like to haf u here wif me
i thought u should noe,
u're not making this easy
i never thought i'd be the one to say..
please don't leave me
i feel like i've lost everything when u're gone
left remembering wat it's like to haf u here wif me
i thought u should noe,
u're not making this easy
take my hand and neva let me go,
promise me...
u'll neva let go
make this last forever
i feel like i've lost everything when u're gone
left remembering wat it's like to haf u here wif me
i thought u should noe, u're not making this easy
i'll fall asleep tonite, cause tat brings me closer to u
Y 8:00 PM
[[*__Why can't u just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I juz wanna be me I dunt understand why
Would u wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
but not the way u want me to
I'm tired of rumors startin'
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of ppl lyin'
Sayin' wat they want abt me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for juz wat it is___*]]
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got back my report card today.. my results are NOT fantastic. i mean.. ok. maybe to some ppl i should be happy wif my marks.. but.. different ppl haf different expectations and also different parents who has different opinions. my marks may seem good to some ppl.. but my marks are a horrendous sight to my parents. my father actually wanted me to retain this year so tat i can sit for streaming again.. and ACTUALLY do better so tat i can go to a triple science class. like wat the hell rite? hmm.. so. wif a father like tat.. how well do u tink i should be doing in order to please him? haha. yupps. oh.. den mrs teo made me feel SOOO much better.. when she called out my name.. she had tat look like.. "haiz.." yup. so i was really reluctant to go up to her. den she was telling me tat i didn't improve at all.. but i told her i did.. and she checked my mid-year marks.. and she was like.. oh yar.. but it is a minimal improvement. wif juz a tiniest of change. [which.. by the way.. is bullsh*t] haha. and den.. my L1R5 is 34 [ i noe.. it is damn bad] and she was like.. hmm.. by next year.. it should be.. hmm.. aiya.. i give u chance.. dun make it so hard on u.. 15 points. i nearly died! tat is like more den half. but.. haiz.. will try to get there.. at least try to hit 20. haha. hmm.. den me and mel got the exact same marks.. both of us had the seventh place.. haha. we two are really cousins. haha. oh.. and fad also had the seventh place.. tat means.. 3 of us had the exact same placing.. haha. damn good rite. haha. and.. ugh..! dun even talk abt my level placing. had.. 113. omg. so lousy!! haiz.. anywae...
hmm.. today some mediacorp artiste came to our skool to judge the creative competition.. wat was her name.. erm.. oh.. belinda lee i tink. something like tat la. was an ex-sacian. she acted as though she was damn big. and her slang was so.. [slang-y] haha. dunno how to describe it. was very bimbotic. and she was like [this is my opinion only ok!] juz because she is an actress.. she can give out comments as though she was very professional. hmm.. oh. but i agree wif her on one thing.. nicolette is damn good! haha. she said tat she thought tat nicolette was very good and tat she was tinkin' of getting nick's portfolio and submitting it to the tv company. yay nicolette!! haha. sec 4/3 was very very funny. haha. but 3/7 was damn freaky la. haha. but.. overall.. it was ok.. yupps. haha.
haiz.. i tell u.. i am getting damn pissed off wif somebody. did 1 thing wrong.. nevamind.. it's ok. did another thing wrong.. forget it. do the 3rd and 4th thing wrong.. u are reaching the limit.. wrong thing no. 5.. tat's it. u are officially on my angry list. i mean.. seriously.. u help a person.. give tat person advice.. and den tat person breaks their promise or say things abt u.. it's damn pissing. and it's gonna be a loooonngg time before i forgive u buddy.. u promised me and u broke it. if u are my fren.. den TREAT me as a fren.. if not.. tell it to MY face wat exactly is ur problem.
ok.. i shall cool down. haiz.. juz really pissed off u noe. haiz. forget it. anywae.. we took lots and lots of photos.. so fun! haha. and so nice! haha.
anywae.. shall end of here.. my fingers hurt alot. haha. take care!
[* When u cry I'd wipe away all of ur tears. When u scream I'd fight away all of ur fears. I held ur hand and u still haf all of me__]]
//- u a re t h e on e ta t I' l l ke e p Fo r al l ti m e . . . - //
Y 4:11 PM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
[ann-marie*][me*]
Y 12:57 AM
well.. got back my results today. sucked. as usual. failed maths and comb. humans. haiz. failed the humans by 4 marks ok. so angry. and my maths is juz crappy and screwed up. all those i got wrong is either miscalculation or i only figured out how to do after the paper.
haiz. damn angry wif myself. was hoping to only fail 1 subject so tat i can show tat i made an improvement. but. haiz.. too bad. guess i didn't work hard enough. at least i passed my sciences.. can u see i'm lke trying and failing to make myself feel better? haha. oh well.. guess wat's done can't be undone.
damn it..! haf to do social studies corrections for
EVERY SINGLE question there is in the question booklet. tat means.. including the source-base qns.. i gotta do
6 structured essays..
SIX! haiz.. stupid adeline lim. irritating..
oh.. which reminds me.. juliana was telling me and tartz tat most of us had more quality den quantity.. so.. i guess i had a quality fail.. wow..! makes me feel so much better. quality fail. sheesh.. haiz..
tmr hoping to go out wif tiffy, lup, meg, and mel and their guys. shld be fun! haha.
oh yar.. isn't it very mean for a person, whom u treated as a fren and neva did anything bad to tat fren, but yet tat fren backstab
bed u and talked bad abt u? wat kind of fren is tat rite? and still has the cheek to talk to u and pretend tat nothing happened. forget it la.. if tat fren can pretend nothing happened den fine.. shan't say anything to tat person. pretend tat tat fren had neva said a thing.
anywae.. i gotta go.. irritating brothers bugging me to get out. take cares..
*[ [ u ' l l a l w a y s b e a p a r t o f m e ] ]*
Y 10:25 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
haiz.. today i was damn pissed off. sorry tiffy and aggy for taking out my anger on u two ok. sorry..! haiz.
today juz sucks. first.. we went to skool for nothing. went there and all we did was juz stone. had no lessons.. no teachers.. nothing to do from 8 to 12.. 4 hrs of juz sitting there in the room. haiz. den the sec 2s had to play monopoly the whole day. poor them. if i were them.. i would go bonkers! really.. go directly to jail. dun pass go. dun collect $200. sheesh. and i tell u.. newater is damn boring and the ppl there are MAD! really. but i tink.. if i was in a mad and childish mood.. i would haf enjoyed it more. but too bad la. i wasn't. haha.
hmm.. den came back to skool.. had the stupid work-shadowing workshop thingy. i'm sorry i was so moody den.. i dunno why.. i couldn't stand her. she's damn bitchified.. the first part. and den later.. i got damn irritated wif her cuz she kept telling stories and all tat.. den the way she talk and talk.. it's as though we are gonna leave skool NOW and go out to work forever. can u imagine all those ppl only attached to the ppl for juz a day? haha. so poor thing had to listen to everything. haha.
hmm.. but i tink i was so moody cuz i guess i was damn fustrated already cuz i lost my basketball shoes. haiz.. how? wat happens if i can't find it? den wat do i tell my mummy? oh well.. it's all my fault.. can't blame anyone but me. who ask me to be so lazy and not to look after my own things? haiz.. i feel so screwed-up today. it's not exactly the best day.. but it's not my worst. haiz. today was juz so sucky.. arggh! shan't dwell on it already..
anywae.. gotta go.
Y 9:10 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
* Life is a journey..
It can take u anywhere u choose to go
As long as u're learning
U'll find all u'll ever need to noe
No one can stop u *
`... U set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left ur desperate spell on me
Say u feel it too
I know u do
I've got so much more to give
this can't die, I yearn to live
I wanna love u forever
and this is all I'm asking of u
ten thousand lifetimes together
is that so much for u to do?
'Cause from the moment tat I saw ur face
and felt the fire in ur sweet embrace
I swear I knew.
I'm gonna to love u forever.
My mind fails to understand
what my heart tells me to do
and I'd give up all I have just to be wif u
now I only want to be right where you are.
In my life I learned tat heaven never waits
let's take this now before its gone like yesterday
'Cause when I'm wif u
there's no where else tat I would ever wanna be
I'm breathing for the next second I can feel u lovin me
I wanna love you forever
Everyday, everyday... *
...haiz. i am sooo bored today. supposed to go out wif him today for a movie.. but my mum spoilt our plans. SORRY..!! haiz. so angry. in the end we spent the whole day getting fried by the sun and me watching my brother and my father trying.. and failing to fish. haha. quite funny to watch. haha. can u imagine.. my brother bought and expensive packet of prawns and he couldn't catch a single fish.. this guy next to him used bread as bait.. and every few minutes he got a bite. and they were BIG. haha.
haiz.. my nose is so burnt. feels weird. haha. i tink i noe why. haha.. on friday tiffy and charmi came my house to play ball. neva play ball in yonkz i tell u. haha. anywae.. yup we played and it was so hot. got sunburnt. haha. anywae.. it was so fun tat day!! haha. played wif guys from coral.. wei ren's fren.. erm.. dunno his name. i juz call him pineapple head. haha. [charmi.. better not be laughing ok. not funny!] haha. yup. den he kept bullying me and tiffy.. dunno why nobody bully charmi. haha. but the guys very fun and nice to play wif.. next time we all muz play again ok..? haha..
anywae.. i tink i wrote alot.. so i shall rest my fingers. heex..
Y 8:41 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
No more exams..! yay..! haha. freedom..!! haha. hmm... going to haf work shadowing. haha. sounds fun. i'm gonna be attached to orchard hotel. haha. gonna turn tat place upside down. haha. yup.. me.. mel.. tiffy.. aggy.. and pat-sy. haha. wanted to do tv productionz.. but.. NOOooo.. haha. nevamind.. it's ok. i like my part. oh..! megx got attached to citibank.. and she is gonna get paid. haiz.. nevamind.. she shall treat all of us to lunch after her attachment. haha. rite? haha.
hmm.. do u noe how bored i am..?! me and charmi were having an online laughing fight and den.. we had a.. [x] and [z] fight.. haha. [eg. charmi: hahahaahhahahahahahaahha.][ME: heeheeeheheeheee] yup.. and tat is only 1 part of it. haha. den we start talking wif [x]s and[z]s. likez thisz and likex tatx. haha. i took the [z]s and she took the [x]s. haha. see how bored we were.. anywae.. gonna play bball tmr..! so fun..! after a looooonnngg time. yay..! haha. hmmm.. should i start working? or should i not? going to be busy this holidays.. camps. work-shadowing.. trying my best to make it to the skool team. haiz. tink i shall decide when i get back my results.. rite... haha. anywae.. i gotta go.. will tell u more abt my work-shadowing ok? haha.
//-i gave up everything i had for somethinhg tat juz would not last.. but i refuse to cry.. no tears will fall from these eyes..-//
Y 9:19 PM
OMG~! i can finally update! i am so happy.. but.. i kinda forgot everything i wanted to write. ARGH! haha. haiz. i miss my *Mr Rubblez.. haha. hmm.. owe him alot for studying wif me and teaching me my sciences and not being able to teach him his maths[which makes me feel so bad]. haha. shall reward him.. after the exams. haha. haiz.. wish he wasn't going to leave.. but maybe he will enjoy it there. den i will be happy for him.. haha..
anywae.. i hate exams.. haiz.. wat happens if i retain? i tell u.. if i do.. i swear.. i will jump from a building ok. seriously. if i were to choose between my parent's anger and jumping.. jumping seems more appealing. haha. oh well. juz gotta wait for the results. haiz.. anywae.. i gtg.. haf to study for physics..
`When luV leaves a Dirty Shirt.. *lil' fren wants to tell u tat he loves u.. but he forgets to clean his muddy paws..!! now.. u haf a shirt wif muddy paw prints..!! Should u get angry at him? Is love always perfect? if genuine love is expressed.. should u be angry when love leaves a shirt wif muddy paw prints..??
//-i gave up everything i had for somethinhg tat juz would not last.. but i refuse to cry.. no tears will fall from these eyes..-//
Y 9:39 PM
