haiz.. today went to skool early to meet abby. had to go and check prices.. which in the end.. i only used the prices for the stinkin' knives. so irritating. den actually met abby earlier so tat she can satisfy her craving of.. PORRIDGE~! haha. but it didn't give her, her pork balls.. instead it was lumps of pork. haha. hmm.. but i tink i wasn't feeling to great today. had a few dizzy spells.. tink it was cuz i didn't eat much. hmm.. maybe.. or either tat i'm juz.. err.. dizzy? haha. anywae.. will take care of myself.. no worries. haha.

Y 12:29 AM

hmm.. gonna make this short. anywae.. today went to watch taxi. was damn funny. haha. den abby and agnes went MADDD!! haha. wat else is new? haha. anywae.. gonna elaborate more on it. yupp.. gotta go. brothers chasing me out again! haiz.. wat to do? i am so nice. haha.

Y 10:03 PM

I am bored..! lalaLA..
BoREd..!
shall i go carolling..?
hMm..?
i dunno~!
i aM FeR-rEaKin bored!
*BOO!*

Y 6:47 PM

I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED..! haha. finished all the lists. took me from last night till today 4.30 pm. haha. and i haven't bathed and havent eaten. dun worry.. i still smell nice. haha. gonna bathe already. haiz. can't stand the tennis ex-girls make so many camp planning sessions.. it' s like taking up my life~! sheesh.. can't wait till this is over. hmm.. feel bad tat i can't spend much time wif my *mr rubbles. sighs.. will make it up to u ok. muz go play ball wif me. haha. i tell u.. my dear can get very very naughty at times.. and get very very high.. haiz.. but wat to do..? still love him the most rite? haha. oh.. u shld ask him or abby abt *god and st loulin wif extra feathers.. haiz. they all arh. haiz. during a CATHOLIC camp still can get damn horny and high. esp my dear. oh my.. haha. anywae.. i shld go and bathe. haha. cannot stand it.. feel so icky and gross. haha.

+..[ [imPerfection] ]..+

Y 5:22 PM

i felt so screwed up today.. at least i managed to right a few wrongs.. but in the process.. did i make things worse? i dunno. wat happens if i did? would i lose a dear fren..? how could i not haf seen how much had changed? does tat make me a bad fren..? why didn't i bother trying to show her how much she was changing for the worse..? i dunno who u are. i would haf neva believed it.. if not for....
haiz.. today cried a few times.. wasn't much tears. and it wasn't anyone's fault. juz alot of things put together. wonder why everything affects me.. why should i even bother in the first place? why should i even get so worked up abt it?
haiz.. i feel really disappointed wif myself. for letting ppl down. I'M SORRY*. when u said tat i only disappoint u.. i neva thought i heard a more hurtful thing.. until u said tat bball was more impt. but i guess.. it's my fault. anywae.. let's juz put it behind us kay..? u are the most impt person to me.. and i love u the most. i am sorry for all the times when i had let u down.. or hurt u or disappointed u. thanx for everything u haf done for me and given me.. i love u..!
guess i feel lighter now..?

Y 8:21 PM

hmm.. juz came back from church camp.. was quite fun. I MISS CAMP.. or rather i miss the ppl at camp. met many many nice ppl there. haha. and the food is quite nice comparatively. haha. oh.. let me tell u.. neva trust agnes lau wif beans. haha. she can lose it in a record number of times in 3 days i tell u. haha. den there was once.. where she lost it.. and den she ran behind the pillar.. came back wif the *shh sign on her lips. turned out tat she fell down. haha. den her foot was like bleeding like hell. haha. so ugly. hmm.. oh.. den u noe.. we had this play thingy.. i tell u.. while we were practising.. my group turned it from a "saintly" story to some kind of pornographic thing. haha. something gotta do wif "moses' long stick" yupps. tat's my grp for u. haha. yupps. erm.. shall stop here. can't remb anything else. haha. wat to do..? got short term memory. haha.

Y 12:27 PM

i dunno wat to feel. i feel bad towards him. feel so guilty.. everytime i talk to him i feel this huge amount of guilt. haiz. den sometimes i feel irritated.. but yet it is nice to talk to him. haiz.. and den.. i feel guilty all over again. can i juz be numbed..?

Y 11:12 PM

haiz.. it is raining now. hope tat it will stop soon. wanna go down and play. haiz. but yupps. hmm.. tmr is camp.. and i haven't even started packing yet. juz too lazy.. dun even haf the mood. haiz. i like can't be bothered wif anything.. even can't be bothered to show my parents my booklist.. haiz. and the best thing is..? my books are supposed to be collected by today.. the last day. haiz. so now i won't haf any books.. but do i care..? no... i will juz wait until the last minuted and den start panicking. haiz. it like juz so me la. haha.
I DUN WANT A PINK JERSEY...!!! who the hell wears a pink jersey?!! definitely not me!! i will look like some retarded pink power ranger. and can u imagine if the jersey sizes get screwed up and i get a small? den i will look like a constipated pink ranger. argh..!! and i thought gold was bad! WHY PINK..??!! pink is sooooo not my colour! haiz.. forget it la. i guess it's the price to pay if i wanna be on the team rite? haiz.. anywae.. maybe it won't be too bad. yupps.
sometimes i tink i neva appreciate wat i haf.. or like treasure wat i got which i wanted for a long time. i mean like.. take the jersey thing.. let's say i get into the team and haf to wear the pink jersey.. and i start complaining and sulking and all tat.. i dun appreciate the chance given to me. other ppl wouldn't mind wearing the jersey if only they were given the chance to play. so i guess i am a person who doesn't treasure wat is given to me.
haiz.. i wish i wasn't like tat. life would be much easier for me and i wouldn't feel so bad and guilty all the time. haiz.. but life is not always perfect rite?

[*imperfection]
+..[[ my .boo!. ]]..+

Y 5:15 PM

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